Life is not a dress rehearsal!!

Leaving Seinfeldia

I’m currently reading the book Seinfeldia by Jennifer Keishin Armstrong which chronicles the behind the scenes of the tv show Seinfeld and I’ve recognized that many of the events in my life feel like theey’re straight out of a Seinfeld episode. I don’t mean this in a good way.  

My day-to-day life was constant stress and conflict during the most routine situations. Over and over again it felt like nothing ever went right, whatever could go wrong always went wrong. Sometimes it was comical, other times it was exasperating to the point where I wondered if something was wrong with everyone else or just me.
I was always ready to go at the person or situation that caused me to feel slighted similarly to the explanation of Larry David. It’s gotten to the point where my doctor game me a prescription for Xanax to calm me down. My kids think I yell at people when I believe I am asserting myself. I refuse to let someone slight me. In essence, I was in a perpetual state of fight or flight, I was always ready to fight (figuratively not literally) 
That is not how I want to live my life anymore. At my age I would be naive to think this will occur overnight but I’m ready to stop believing the world is out to walk over me. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.   
I wonder if I’m alone in feeling this way and wanting to change. There are a million self help books and I feel like I’ve rad them all. Right now instead of reading about Seinfeeldia, I want to read the book on leaving Seinfeldia.

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